lalala~~

i have forgotten how many weeks has passed since PRCP started…..kind of sad though….i really like this ward….the people are all really nice and warm…the form to choose which ward i would like to go was given to me on last tue/wed i think…

been thinking alot about it and i finally came up with 3: Major OT, A&E, ATW. other than these 3 places, i can’t think of any other wards that i’ve been to and thought,”this would be interesting to work at…”

personally,i want to take the easy route but i’ve been advised by friends and family to take up something challenging….many people say that “u must have passion for nursing if not you won’t be a good nurse.”

truthfully, i don’t have it. i didn’t want to be a nurse when i was 16; it was my 8th choice.

but having been a student in nursing for 3 years, i come to understand that nursing isn’t all about cleaning up after people…it’s more than that.

nowadays, my mind is full of questions such as,” am i making the right choice? will i come to regret it to the point of hating nursing? will i be able to cope in a new environment?”

but i guess that i won’t know till i find out and for now, im just going to have to try my best. even if i make mistakes, i’ll learn from it and use it as knowledge.

yep…that about sums up my thoughts towards nursing now….other than that, i just spent about 100 dollars buying a pull-over, a pair of shoes and a handbag! yay! im working on one of my new year resolutions! XDD

okayz…till next time then~

updatesss..

after this, i’m gonna go sleeeeeeeeep till 11 am…short-lived but still, better than nothing.

anywayz, it’s my like 5th week i think…in prcp….still don’t get to do difficult cases where i get to call different ppl in different departments….i took only 1 case today as my SN in-charge told me that the others were too complicated….

so too bad for me….at least i got to do 2 admissions….usually i take 2 cases…(some might see this and go,”u take only 2?!! i take 4-6 cases by now u know?!! bla bla bla…i dun giva crap.)

so i wanna upgrade to 3 cases by this week! but tomorrow is like afternoon shift so i dun think there’ll be many changes and even lesser since students can’t take blood, give IV antibiotics.etc..most probably lotsa transfers and admissions i guess…

at least i’ll be on morning the day after!! sucks cos i won’t have enough sleep but yay cos i love morning shift.

im saving up to spend $$ on clothes…..hope i buy some nice ones soon!! it’s time to get new clothes…i’ve been singing the same tune over and over again but no action taken….THIS TIME!!! HEHEHE~~

btw, the ward im assigned too is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. staff are around 20 + i think…very approachable and the senior staff are willing to teach; not arrogant compared to some wards i’ve been to.

so far so good….i admit im slow in some areas….but at least im going at a pace im comfortable with…slowly taking more cases….=) looking forward to morning shift to do changes yea!! ok…till next timee…

holidays~

1st week so fast gone….i can only imagine how fast the next 7 weeks will pass….my routine is basically, wake up, watch tv, do housework, eat, watch tv, run/swim, bathe,eat and sleep…..

maybe i should try something different…..but i feel so lazy everyday….i juz feel like watching telly all day long and never have to get up to move….oh well….whatever works…

goals for the holiday:

1)Go shopping for new clothes!!! i just cleared my wardrobe a few days ago and cleared a total of FIVE full bags of clothing….so i need new ones desperately…..

2)Learn how to use makeup!! As well as how to choose, how to apply…bla bla bla….

3)To increase my stamina through swimming!!

hopefully, i can do what i’ve planned…..hehehe~

anywayz….today was fun~ cos i went on a picnic with my family in the morning!!! it was nice…all four of us(cos my bro was still in uni dorm) sitting on the mat with home-cooked beehoon and fried chicken wings!!! then all of us play vocable and tai-ti…..and enjoyed the breeze while playing! it’s nice with people when u can just enjoy their presence and the atmosphere….=))

it’s nice to have these kind of outings once in a while….away from housework and troubles… like a VACATION!

hahas~so long as i can  just not NEED to do anything(e.g. work or housework) and slack with people im comfortable with, it’s a vacation!

hazy feeling.

Feel so out of it after work today………..last day of attachment at AMKCH….but feels as though im going back there tomorrow….after a month or two, i guess i’ll forget the staff there and even the patients. Unless something/someone gives me a shock, i’ll probably forget….

I’m guessing that i’ll most likely get ALOT of scolding during OT and ED attachment since i forget my theory and practical skills easily…..heck, ask me what to do when a pt bleeds and my answer is look for gauze and tegaderm.

oh well, what happens, happens. at the most i’ll just get scolded and bad grades. so long as i pass, it’s fine. hmm…kinda mental these days…..

i just wanna sleep and wake up in the late afternoon tomorrow….so tired…..damn should have just tried the mooncakes earlier….now i crave mooncakes esp snow skin!

hahas~juz remembered a kid who literally knocked himself onto a pillar….it’s kinda funny if u picture it!!! *walk walk walk, turn, WHAM* hahahahha~not being a sadist but it’s hilarious ….lucky the poor kiddo only had a light cut near the eye, nothing too serious….oh well….at least i had smth to laugh about for today!

tomorrow jus gonna slack at home and be a vegetable. but my hair is still wet from the bath. darn. F.R.I.E.N.D.S to the rescue!!!

pheww….

tried to cook today and it turned out well! fortunately.

did some housework and left for a movie with a friend i haven’t went out with in a long time…..so fun~ haha~nice to see she changed! as for me, i don’t think so. =(

themovie was darn nice!! it’s called public enemies i think……i’ll buy the dvd. THAT is how much i like it! and i NEVER buy dvds. butnow i remember why i don’t frequent movies that much….. it’s cos i can’t stretch my leg!!!!  in the midst of the movie, i was like,”hmm…my knee feels sore….i’ll straighten it for awhile….”

Frustratingly, i couldnt!! and my knee was sore for the rest of the movie….plus, the movie was 2 hrs plus! my poor knees in pure agony….first time i was actually happy for crowded trains. cos i can stand.

during the movie, my home called me 4 times, so i answered on the 5th call….then the background sound was loud and music was blasting on the other end…my mom asked,”u coming home for dinner?” and i replied,”no” in the most quiet way as possible….but i still got a glare and unpleasant ,”tsk” from my neighbour in the cinema…..in the end, i just hung up….

i felt so guilty la….. dammit….i was sitting in the middle row of the middle column….so any way, if i went out to take the call or took the call inside, i’ll offend somebody one way or another(when I have FOUR missed calls,i’d think,”EMERGENCY!SOMETHING BAD IS HAPPENING!”….

so, at the end of the movie, i called home and asked y there was such loud brackground noise when she called….she replied,”your kor kor la! play rock band with the drums!!”

hey, he is my brother but isn’t he your SON too??

oh well…got home and on the train i called hafiza……she told me my presentation was tmr and i was SHOCKED. i was thinking,”OMG, it’s TOMORROW?!!?!” i didn’t know that…..i thought it was friday or smth….” oh well….lucky she told me….so i can prepare for tmr….thanks hafiza! u saved my presentation!! =DD

that being said, i stayed up to prepare so shall slp now. nite.

=.=

super tired…..slept for 3 hrs last night….and for a person used to slping at least 12 hrs at night, it really is VERY tiring. but it was worth waking up early to see my sister’s softball match….she played well! it’s fun to observe but i’ll make sure to sleep early the day b4…..

then went to see her play bball…well, i tried to keep myself awake….but i ended up sleeping there….so i decided to go home to sleep….

as usual, my habit of switching on the computer never dies and i didnt sleep till 6pm….was watching the kdrama My Girl all over again….reason being, i saw it on tv on saturday and wanted to know what happened…one thing lead to another….hence, from the episode aired on tv(episode 3) i ended up at episode 13 today…..

then i woke up to accompany my sis for awhile before she went out……went running in different places, came back to bathe and eat dinner…..and now, i’m bored. AGAIN.

is there an end to boredom?! apparently not,judging from how this week of holiday went…..i wanna watch a movie but im broke. argh. gonna bake choco chip cookies tmr…..most of my cookie” tasters”(guinea pigs really…) seem to prefer the shortbread cookies but personally, i prefer the chocolate chip cookies…. mb i should try using white chocolate chips this time…..create my OWN recipe perhaps? nah, i’ll probably die from food poisoning….

my body is like saying,”go sleep! go sleep!” but my brain is saying,”stay awake! stay awake!” haiz…..think i’m gonna go read some manga before drying my hair….then, i’ll sleep….hopefully.

1,2….cookie?

today’s the 1st time i baked cookies!!!! and it turned out not bad!! i’ll have to admit that my 1st batch was charred but my 2nd was successful!! i used cookie cutters to make them look nice and placed them into small little bags….=)

the only reason the 1st batch turned out charred was cos i expected cookies to have the kind of crispy outlook…lightbrownish in colour like Famous Amos! However, after the time required to bake the cookies was up, i saw that the cookies were still soft and dark-brown…so i reasoned with myself and let it bake a little longer….5 minutes later, i opened the oven and was greeted by a VERY FAMILIAR smell. i could only think,”holy shyt…”

i didnt even need to see the cookies to know it was charred. so for the 2nd batch, i put it in to bake as indicated…..after i let it cool, i tried it and it was nice!! It seems that the cookies were supposed to be the kind of soft and chewy cookies;  NOT the kind i was expecting. -_-” Moral of the story: Follow the darn recipe!

that was is the afternoon…..before dinner, my bro and i were playing the guitars on rock band 2(well,HE was playing…i was just strumming along as if i were playing.) Then Rocky, my dog, sat down in front of us….and then i had an IDEAAAA….

I turned to Rocky and sang,”Amai, amai, amai…..ko-i-bi-to~” in Negishi style from the DMC movie!!  it’s fun, i tell u!!

gonna learn the song…..HEHEHE. Rocky, be afraid…..beVERY afraid…. MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

fyp…

i still dont really like the fact that im a 3rd yr student…… cos it means working life is coming soon and = no such thing as 1 month holiday…. ofcourse, with the exception of maternity leave but that is out of point… and being a 3rd yr student = final year project a.k.a. FYP.

Oh well, that aside… Currently, I’m training for my upcoming NAPFA test which is in like 5 weeks time….my willpower is decreasing by the day but i try not to eat so much by using water to shut my stomach up.  I only have like 2 shirts and 2 shorts for training and i keep alternating between the two…. i need FBT shorts, sports bras and tank tops for running!!!  but i owe my brother money so i can’t spend much either….headache.

On a happy note, 2 weeks break is coming up and i have finished my project i was in-charge of!! so i can rest till the examinations!!! YAY! at least it’s not so stressful….

yikes. i feel like running and it’s 11pm…. should i or should i not…..hhmmmm……shall get offline 1st….ciaos…

updating…

the past two days were fun in school….my friends and i played truth or dare, alternating between the two each turn… the dares were fun!! like writing your name with your butt, saying hi to the person who comes in thru the door and dancing to “nobody” and “gee”…..

today after eating dinner with my parents we went home and i went in front of them to open the door…here’s the conversation that ensued:

Mum: Catch the keys…(pretends to throw)

Me: NOOO!

She seriously throws it at me this time..

Me: AHHH!( attempts to catch but fails)

Dad: You are worse than Rocky!

Me: WHAT?! I just have butterfingers!

Dad: Even Rocky can catch better than you!

Me:……….

==End==

So insulting right?!!! anywayz, just to clarify…. my dad throws the treats at Rocky and rocky can’t catch it like 90% of the time! in the 1st place, my dad shouldn’t compare me to my dog…it’s so…..so……sadd……

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Saw this today and found it interesting.

I may seem neat but I’m a mess.

I may seem cautious, but I’m heartless.

I may seem ignorant, but I’m tenacious.

I may seem strong, but in fact, I’m shrewd.

I may seem complicated but I’m simple.

I may seem strong but I’m nothing but a weak person.

I find it hmm…….well-put? Nice though.

anyway, back to updates on my life. I rented a movie yesterday! A movie called, “Asylum” but I have not watched it yet though….still waiting for my sis to watch together with me. but by the time she wants to watch, i’m snoring. -_-” i just realized it’s 11.20pm already….probably gonna knock out soon. the early sign of tiredness: yawning.

I finished a 6 volume manga today. I feel a sense of accomplishment! All right! =)